Update

Currently I’m stuck between wanting to do another week long fast to lose some of the weight i put on after my last week long fast, and wanting to eat healthy and exercise and be “normal.” I literally don’t know how to be normal though and this is my problem. I have all of these disordered thoughts and right now I’m currently freaking out because I’m going on vacation in 3 months and I’m worried that everyone will think that I’m fat. I don’t want to feel this way but I do. And I know that if I fast again I’ll end up binging or even eating normally and gain the weight i “lost” back. So this is how I feel in all honesty.