WOD (no gym no equipment!)
1. 8 Minute yoga warm up
2. POP Pilates Inner Thigh Workout
4. POP Pilates (ft. Davey Wavey) Ab Workout
5. 57 jumping jacks, jumps while using jumpsnap, crunches, and squats
6. 5 minute yoga cool down.
My ED brain gets upset when it doesn’t see loss after a good day of eating and gym work. My logical healthy brain says this is a process, this takes time.
I need to get better about wanting instant gratification with the healthy road. I know it’s not going to happen overnight so why do I expect it to? I know that if I starve myself for a week it will result in a great loss, but then I will binge and I will gain it all back. I need to focus on sustainability. So for right now I don’t think I’m going to weigh myself. It’s only a trigger for binges and starving. Maybe I’ll weigh myself once a week just for tracking purposes but other than that I don’t think I should.
August (A mini update with major plans)
For the last few months (well in all honesty since I started to “relapse” a while back) I’ve been cycling between fasting for weeks on end, to eating one meal a day, to binging, to purging… It’s been a shit storm and I know that. I lost weight, and currently am maintaining 157lbs as my weight. I’ve decided to make August ahealthy month.No more binging, no more purging, no more fasting. I’ve decided to fuel my body with good healthy foods, and to not look for the easy way out and the “fast” way to lose weight. Below is a list of goals I hope to achieve.
- Binge free August [ ]
- Do Yoga daily (even if it’s just a 10 minute sequence in the morning or at night) [ ]
- No starving myself (eat three balanced meals every day) [ ]
- Make lunch the biggest meal and dinner the smallest [ ]
- Do not eat while distracted (no tv, phones, or computer during meal times. these things distract you from the signals your brain sends to tell you that you’re full.) [ ]
- Only 1-2 cheat drinks allowed during the week (diet soda, juice, sugary coffee beverages) [ ]
- Drink 2 liters of water daily [ ]
- Only 2 cups of coffee daily (I depend far too much on caffeine) [ ]
- Go to bed earlier wake up earlier (I need to get my body ready to do both school and work and this will require me to be awake earlier in the day) [ ]
- Get active for 30 minutes 3x’s a week (minimum) this can be walking, jogging, running, biking, HIIT intervals, anything.
- Quit night eating (most of these goals/steps will help prevent this but night eating is something that always gets me)
- Take lunch to work (good on my wallet mostly. i work in WF and i can always find healthy food)
- No food in the bedroom. No snacks, no meals allowed!
- Stop making excuses. You cannot complain about results you didn’t get for work you didn’t do. The only thing standing in your way is you!
I’m really exhausted but I’m not going to let that stop me from going to the gym!
I need to keep myself motivated, yesterday was a good rest day, I don’t need to skip out on a workout!
Dedication
My alarm went off at 6:45am and woke me rather unexpectedly seeing as how I had forgotten I had even set it. I turned it off along wit my 7am alarm and rolled back over to go to sleep. Then I thought to myself “really? you aren’t going to go to the gym just because you’re a little tired? of course you’re tired, you just woke up. get out of bed. NOW. think about how much you’ll regret this if you don’t workout this morning. you’ll feel crappy about yourself and you don’t want that.” and with this little pep talk I got myself out of bed and into my gym shoes. I sleepily drove myself to the gym and hopped on the treadmill to start my run. As I got going I contemplated just going for 20 minutes, or even 15. Then I told myself once again that I’d regret it if I didn’t go for my full 30 minutes. Today I even pushed myself to use the free weights in our gym (something I amterrifiedof).
You’ll always regret the workouts you didn’t do.
Some things that keep me inspired
Tumblr
- the fitspo/thinspo/weight loss community on tumblr is so incredibly inspiring. even if you’re having a bad day you can come on here and make a post about it and receive so many lovely messages motivating you to do your best and reminding you that it’s never too late to get back on track. every single post on here is inspiring and motivational, really makes me want to get my ass in gear.
My progress
- my current progress doesn’t really seem like enough but looking back at pictures of me at 180 and me now (157/155) i can see that i have actually come a long way, and that inspires me to keep going and keep reaching my goals.
Minnesota
- when i move to minnesota (hopefully next august) i want to be looking and feeling the best i can. the move is going to be stressful enough by itself, i don’t want to have to worry about my weight and how i look on top of that!
