It was nice to have a rest day but I have to say I missed not going today. I work at 12:30pm so I have no excuse for not just getting up early and going. Plus working out in the morning is so much better.
did 40 minutes elliptical and 30 minutes treadmill (walking on an incline). feeling pretty good. had some tofu and sipped on some cherry juice as a post workout snack.
Pre-workout prep:
Workout
Post-workout plan:
So ready to hit the gym and do work. :)
I just weighed in after days of eating alotand obviously I didnotlike what I saw. Time to get my ass back in gear. Going to the gym, so I think I might get on the bike and stair stepper. Fucccckkkkk meeeee.
well there goes my streak of not purging (as in vomiting not using laxatives because i have still been abusing those). also my colon cleanser conveniently kicked in right after i purged. aha life.
my face is puffy, my eyes are red, i’m stuffed up, and exhausted. purging is not glam. just saying.
1. I cannot wait to get to the gym tomorrow! I haven’t been able to go for the whole weekend!
2. The reason why I haven’t been able to go is because my sister had her baby this weekend! That’s right I’m an auntie to a beautiful little baby girl. She woke me up at 3am on saturday and asked me if i wanted to come in with her and her boyfriend or wait at home and i had been sleeping in my jeans so i would be ready in case she woke me up so i popped out of bed and drove us all in. she had angelina at 10:27am with only about 20-30 minutes of active, pushing labor. i was so happy to be a part of this little miracle and be able to be in the delivery room with her. So now here are a few pictures from yesterday and today! (She comes home tomorrow!)
I picked one up at work tonight it’s WFM brand 7-day cleanse. I really need to get this extra gluten out of my body and I figure this will help some! Fresh fruits, veggies, and whole grains will be eaten during this so I’m not starving myself. It consists of a quick liver cleanse, an acacia fiber cleanse, and a colon cleanse. Going to aim to drink 2 liters of water daily with this one. I’ll weigh in and measure myself tomorrow also.
Currently I’m stuck between wanting to do another week long fast to lose some of the weight i put on after my last week long fast, and wanting to eat healthy and exercise and be “normal.” I literally don’t know how to be normal though and this is my problem. I have all of these disordered thoughts and right now I’m currently freaking out because I’m going on vacation in 3 months and I’m worried that everyone will think that I’m fat. I don’t want to feel this way but I do. And I know that if I fast again I’ll end up binging or even eating normally and gain the weight i “lost” back. So this is how I feel in all honesty.
Which gives me the strength to keep going since I feel like I haven’t seen a real change in myself yet. Honestly it hasn’t been all healthy weight loss, but I’m trying.
